最近情绪起伏好大，好多事在一瞬间发生。

圣诞节的味道是涩的，我笑我哭我闹。

妈说我忽略家庭，关系疏远了。

烦恼新学期的选科，时间表换了又换。

下定决心做part time，才发觉人家不要我 =(

想见面又怕见得太多，不敢缠你依赖你。

如果她不回来我要怎么继续？不敢想象没有她的日子我要怎么过。

房东太太说话不算话，硬是多扣了我半个月房租。

昨天和Y聊了很多，感情里面的对错我不懂。

哪种方式最适合，最持久，最浪漫？

我只知道坦坦荡荡，自然开心地过每一天。

After 3 months of preparation, finally we'r off to Gua Musang Kelantan. The experience is so memorable tat it cant be described by words. Everythg is new to me, everythg is meaningful to me.

Being adopted is a whole new experience. living under one roof v foster dad, mom n 2 cute siblings. foster mum is a great cook. i believe i put on weight during this one week stay. foster dad fetch me back n forth for events everyd. really appreciate their effort.

organizing n conducting event is a whole new experience. from proposals to the happening of the event is really a long n tough process. every event is a challenge n i learn from every event. when u'r the PIC (person incharge) for an event. u'r the leader n everythg is depend on u. u hv to take the responsibility of making sure the event runs smoothly. I was incharge of 3 events n Emcee for 1 event. a whole new experince. was really proud being given the chance.

wonder y i was being called panda? definitely has smthg to do v my dark circles n eyebags. during the camp we organize locally, i slept less than 5 hrs in 2 days. was really exhausted n tired. really suffer n headache. bt every member is in the same situation. we put in efforts to make sure every event is a success. it's worth it!

close relationship was being built between the 28 members n 2 advisers. all of us carry the same responsibility n belief. we'r in the same BOAT. everyone face challenges together. whenever each of us nid help, the whole team is there to back up. everyone was giving their best n full cooperation. We'r a FAMILY.

wanna thank a lot of ppl who stand by me all these while. My Edu group leader tian xin n vivien who guide me throughout these 3 months. Advisers who giving useful advice, partners who gave full cooperation as well as all members who be there at all time.

I've grow mentally. I learn n i achieve. This is a once in a lifetime opportunity. I'm proud tat i attend the interview n training, go through 3 months of preparation n at the end the 1 week Gua Musang service. I'm proud to be one of the 20th CS member!

平安夜前夕，迫不及待打给你。

当我拒绝你的提议时，

你说的话真的很刺耳。

盖上电话直接去洗澡。

越想越觉得委屈。

从来从来你认为一切都是理所当然吗？

从来从来你有没有替我想过？

道歉就得原谅？我不那么认为。

很怕支持不下去了。

爱一个人好累。

爱一个人好委屈。

爱一个人好想哭。

爱你好累。爱你好委屈。爱你好想哭。

Decision made.

I shall listen to my heart.

I love every single one of you.

矛盾。

庆幸自己是理智的。

爱你所以保护你和我自己。

相信自己的坚持和意志力。

爱我 非你莫属

我只愿守护 由你给我的幸福

爱我 非你莫属

也许会 笑着哭

但那人是你所以 不怕苦

-《非你莫属》 TANK

I miss college days..

I miss my frens..

I miss the lessons.. (bt nt exam n test ==")

I miss a lot of ppl who i cant meet in the holidays..

I miss hving lunch together.

I miss those lame jokes we told n lame action we did.

Holidays r great as long as they r nt longer than 2 weeks.

Now, I'm so bored =(

I cant work, I cant back to hometown, I cant go on a vacation.

I'm trap in this small rented room in subang.

Most of u r working so i dun wanna interrupt u.

I nid an outing! or meeting someone! can I?

+我告诉自己千万不能过度依赖+