My Life. My Blog. Myself.

Menstrual Pain

2011-08-26T07:13:00.002+08:00

月经来访，半夜痛到睡不着。

可是，总比没来的好吧！

女人，每一个都好伟大。

生活过得很舒适，很快乐，很幸福 =)

人真的要学会知足，你才会发现自己拥有的是那么多。

开开心心过每一天，你会觉得这世界，真美。

生意慢慢上轨道，从零开始的成就感让自己觉得很满足。

做什么都要有热诚及耐心，做起来才会有干劲，才会有意义。

虽然没赚到什么大钱，可是单单被认同的那种感觉就值得了。

挫折在所难免，吸取经验，学习，进步 =)

生命中的快乐有人分享，是非常幸运、幸福的事。

而我更幸运的是，能有你跟我分享。

到今年的十月份就已经两年了。

我可以感觉到那种稳定和浓浓的安全感。

我也学会知足，庆幸自己被给予的一切。

曾经取笑老妈老爸是老古板，就是只谈一场恋爱，初恋就认定对的人。

后来自己经历了才发现，恋爱太让人伤痕累累，老爸老妈那种爱是最幸福的。

把最纯洁无私的心交给对方，能碰到两颗真心，是多么困难的事啊。

我这只丑小鸭很庆幸能遇到真心对待自己的人。

我最骄傲和庆幸的其中一件事是，我的初恋。

我的初恋让自己有自信，我的初恋让我成长改变，我的初恋让我体会太多道理，我的初恋对象和我当时一样单纯，我的初恋对象爱上的是我一直被否定的内在，我的初恋对象就是我理想中的伴侣。。。还有好多好多。

最后，我的初恋对象，是那个能用眼神交流，无论如何都包容我哄我，百忙之中还会陪我开导我，永远支持我鼓励我，让我变成今天的郑欣慧的，我深爱的肥猪。

我们的爱没有轰轰烈烈的情节。我们的爱没有山盟海誓。

我们的爱是简单的、像海浪拍打在沙滩上，像漫步在山林间那种让人安心、舒适的爱。

是那种以往进对方的眼，就知道彼此想什么。

是那种什么都不做，懒洋洋躺在一起的一个午后。

是那种在彼此脆弱时，能放下一切给予支持。

是那种各自面对自己的电脑，可是不忘在移动时给对方拥抱。

是那种就算两年了，还每天向对初恋情人通电话那样，轻声细语的撒娇。

是那种郑欣慧的烂脾气，许顺画的lansi pattern，竟然互补收敛。

常有人问每天见面不会没新鲜感，不会太平凡没浪漫？

我后来发觉我要朝向的，是老了以后，还会在午后手牵手，去公园漫步的简单幸福。

我要的答案

2011-07-02T10:52:00.003+08:00

“为什么每次都是这样？我们开心的出去，然后你要问一大堆东西，弄到我们心情都不好。”

“是不是要吵架被我骂，你才甘愿？”

又是开开心心出去，emo心情回来的一天。

那些问题，我重复问了又问，有时我也不知道为什么。

可能是希望有一次，你会给我我想要听到的答案。

一个女孩，付出越多，越会感到不安，越会没安全感。

想要给未来的日子买保险，想要听到不管发生任何事，你都会不离不弃。

想要让自己安心，我的选择是对的，我的付出是值得的。

这时候才发觉自己的性格其实还是那样硬，不管怎样都不会认错的。

每一次心软放下姿态的哄我的，是你。

我的眼泪很坚强，不想哭时怎么也流不出。

可是碰到了你，随时随地都可能像水龙头那样哗啦哗啦流不停。

我喜欢听你讲大道理，摸着我的头让我觉得自己像个小丫头。

下一次我要告诉自己，不用再问了。

因为我要的答案，就是我们正在前近的方向。

谢谢你，肥猪。

阳光微笑 =D

2011-06-19T22:40:00.002+08:00

不管再大的雨，总会等到雨过天晴的时候

你有像彩虹般的阳光笑容

所以我相信这场雨一定会很快过去

一定要开心、一定要幸福

Brave brave Girls

2011-06-17T01:38:00.002+08:00

我记得自己是提起多莫大的勇气才告诉你那件事。

实在很感谢你没有怪罪我。

我其实可以撒谎，可以隐瞒。可是我知道，信任是最可贵的。

我不愿意你知道这件事的时候，是从别人的口中，而不是我。

换了status，算是对你的承诺。不会再有下次。

最近的心情，很阳光。

每天花好多时间打扮，喜欢自信的出门。

喜欢很有朝气的自己，喜欢能够将开心传染给周围的人。

很多时候，我都了解，我也经历过。

当你好好的爱自己过后，你会发觉更多人爱你。

最近听了、看了很多爱情故事，也想了好多。

觉得要是发生在自己身上，我一定会接受不了。

我没有想象中脆弱，只是，

生命太短，我不想让我的心受煎熬。

女孩们，勇敢去爱。

肥猪，真的好爱你。

Hui

Loved

2011-06-07T19:02:00.004+08:00

暴风雨过后，果然出现了更美的彩虹。

在接受一切美好的同时，也付出了好多好多。

心甘情愿，只为了继续快乐的走下去

谢谢你给我的一切，我是真的相信我们会继续走下去。

我是真的觉得自己很幸福。

我是真的很爱你。

Hui

Love Letters

2011-06-04T00:23:00.003+08:00

My Favourite Parts :D

U tell me I'm pretty. N tat's the best thg tat has ever motivated me.
I wanna be REAL pretty. Just like wat u said.
N everytime look into the mirror, I feel better. I see a better me n it makes everythg worth it.

U see v eyes, listen v ears, think v mind, feel v hands.

I see v heart, listen v heart, think v heart, feel v heart.

See the difference? =)

I express a lot, so i understand sometimes u may get annoyed.
It's alrite. just dun say it in my face =="
I've so so so much to tell, n i dun wan to wait for other time cz who knows tmr never comes?
so i wanted to share my thoughts with the ppl i love.
i wan them to knw hw i feel. I want u to know.

I want the best for u. So if I have only RM10, I'll give u all if u really need them.
I'm not worry u'll runaway cz i understand u well.
I dun need to know everythg, tat's ur job.
My job is a lot tougher u knw, tat is to understand u.

Top of the World

2011-05-27T19:26:00.002+08:00

Actions speak louder than words. I've seen so much more empty promises.

Sisters, best friends, friends. It's all the same.

He'll be there when you're most vulnerable, filling you with all the words that's even sweeter than honey.

When u finally believe in him and ready to do a leap of faith, he is gone.

I wonder how many times these dramas will be repeating.

The best part is he dun even care, still looking good, still a sunny day for him, for another victim maybe?

Guys who dun stick to what they said and promise are disgusting.

Not even worth the time to confront and scold them.

What's left will be just broken pieces of heart waiting for another guy to stick and stitch it up.

For me, I'm lucky enuf to not involve in this kind of situation.

Much effort have been put in and I really saw it.

It's funny how u always do it through action n i demand sweet talks.

I guess all girls r vulnerable to sweetalkers. So do I sometimes.

I m thankful of having u to be there to walk through my life no matter thick and thin.

In order to keep me feeling safe and hapi, u hv give in a lot. I really know that.

I m grateful that I seen clearly how ur actions r so real and how some uncertainty dont worth the risk of trying it out.

Relationship can be sweet, but it must be realistic at the same time.

How much do you love me?

Instead of hearing : I wanna spend the rest of my life with u,

U gave me: I see my future with you.

And that makes all the difference for who we are today.

I love u and I will always be loyal to u just like the way u make me feel safe.

Our thinking might change, our behavior might change, our appearance might change.

The only thing that doesnt change will be the memories we have gone through and how we are determine to be with each other in the future.

Extras:

Got A in International Management class today. So freaking happy and it's the best comment I've ever receive. Thank you Ms Cassie, u gave me the strength to perform even better next time. After all, my effort pays out :D all the headache n sickness is worth it. Thank you.

Sometimes I wanna be a bad bad girl

2011-05-26T19:41:00.003+08:00

很多人告诉我父母我们姐妹家教很好，很让大人放心。

他们看不见的又有多少？

我们喜欢派对，我们喜欢震耳欲聋的音乐，我们喜欢在tipsy的状况下随音乐舞动。

做了太久的乖乖女，我们反而比别人更敢玩。

我们知道限度，知道如何保护自己，知道什么不该玩。

只是在酒精的麻醉下，在音乐的旋律中，我们不想停止跳舞。

很好奇自己为什么还忘不了那件事。

我很清楚自己的选择是什么，什么是值得投资的。

只是偶尔我还是会贪心的想象那些没发生的如果。

人都是这样吧，喜欢尝试，充满好奇。

庆幸一切还是像从前那样的好，我是个幸福的女孩。

如果有下一次，我会不会因为好奇而做另一个选择？

我说：

我的想象力有时丰富得很可怕。

我的好奇心有时候超乎你想象。

我的胆量有时候让人惊讶。

我的情绪有时让你不知所措。

我这个人有时根本不是你以为的那样。

Sometimes, I wanna be a bad bad girl too.

Love,

Hui

U'r that special someone to other people

2011-05-22T21:45:00.003+08:00

对不起

我很自私

我没有解释清楚

所以演变成那个样子

对不起

我很贪心

我没有即时拒绝

所以发生不必要的误会

对不起

我不诚实

我没有和你坦白

所以你不知道发生什么事

谢谢你

让我觉得自己很特别

是值得被保护被珍惜的

让我为自己的性格感到骄傲

我很清醒

我很珍惜你的坦白

说好一起忘记

不再脑海可是会在心理记得

兄弟 =)

放假。很想你

2011-05-18T13:42:00.005+08:00

“哇，你给他跟美女单独去旅行哦？”

最近最常听到的，还是这句话。哪个女孩不会吃醋？虽然一开始会胡思乱想，也闹了好久。

可是到最后，我选择了相信。经得起考验的，才是值得付出的感情。

“一年七个月”

565天。我们经历过的酸甜苦辣是我20年来最难忘的。

或许明天地球就会灭亡。我不想再让年轻留白，我不想再遗憾。

“男人和女人是两个星球的生物”

每一次的争吵，都是每一次的考验。通过了，我们继续携手同行。

有时我们会疲惫于是应对方的不同，不想再体谅，我们想放手。

可是最后我们都会领悟，那些小事是多么微不足道。

“完美男人”

我曾经告诉自己，我不想再受委屈，我要找个能完美配合我的完美男人。

后来我才发现，当你不想在改变那个人的时候，他就是你的完美。

所以我牵回你的手，相信那句，爱他，所以他很完美。

“改变自己”

为了能继续走下去，不让对方受委屈，我们都改了好多。

每一次的争吵，都让我们为了对方改变。所以我不再害怕坦白。

爱你，所以改变自己。

她问如何知道你真的爱一个人？

我说爱一个人就是，没有他的日子像：

鱼儿不再游泳，

鸟儿不再飞翔，

想起他心会痛，

见到他无法呼吸，

闭上眼脑海都是他，

眼泪会在你不提防的时候悄悄留下。

她问如何知道他是否值得去爱？

我说你会不顾一切去爱他的不管结果如何都算值得。

愿意为他付出一切的不后悔的。

“悄悄话”

我真的很想你。

我希望从今能和你牵着手趴趴走的，只有我。

什么都不去想，好吗

2011-03-23T16:47:00.005+08:00

Pictures might lie. But I'm still that girl that's easily stressed.

So much thing happens this 2 months.

I'm so stress, exhausted.

I hope I dun have to think about all those problems.

Life should be stress free.

I went to club but I do have a bottom line.

I wanna go home so badly bt I was tied by all the assign due n mid term.

I need to recharge myself.

Life can be so de-motivating.

I miss family. so much.

Would u be my destressor?

Just the Way I Am

2011-01-28T20:58:00.004+08:00

"Cuz I'm amazing just the way I am"

We always searching for an answer.

Answer to end these misery, insecurity, loneliness.

And finally we found that answer to our problem.

Who knows it better other than ourselves?

Life is too short to waste.

Keep going on, chasing our dreams.

Keep believing.

♥

Hui

28/11/2011

自寻烦恼

2011-01-23T00:42:00.003+08:00

一直守候在电脑前，refresh profile!!!

开网店很过瘾，也很emo。

加了人不知道会不会被accept。

accept了不知道会不会按我的profile

按了不知道会不会看我的相册。

看了相册不知道会不会有兴趣。

有兴趣了不知道会不会想买。

如果想买又不知道会不会马上联络我。

唉，头发白了:(

老板娘上

Paendeo Accessorize

Monkey Business

2010-12-18T15:35:00.003+08:00

Last day in Kuantan :)

Hv been staying here for 5 days.

Well, swimming, Jacuzzi, steamroom, sauna!

Really enjoying life here hehe.

Anyone missing me? :p

Quite a few interesting thg happen, one of it will be the monkeys!

My family n I were hving breakfast at McD when a few monkeys came near our table.

At first we were like 'wooooooooooooooooo'.

Then the monkeys came near n jump on our table!

We manage to save only 2 burgers while the rest taken away by those happy monkeys =="

Really one scary experience, luckily the shop is willing to compensate our lost.

Then the hotel manager told us there's a crocodile discovered at Teluk Cempedak beach and 'babi hutan' exist in the forest before.

Omg is this a hotel or a zoo we'r staying in =="

Goin home today n gotta prepare for another trip.

oh ya i hv started to prepare xmas gift too!

Happy Holiday!

*LOVE*

高级中药房

2010-12-10T17:47:00.003+08:00

现在的中药房竟然可以比西药房还专业，还高级。

高雅的装潢和摆设，完全没有浓浓的中药味。

柜台坐着的是穿着白色制服的年轻妹妹。

给我看病的是一位传着医袍，年约30的年轻女中医师。

和想象当中有太大落差了。

月经不顺是因为雄性荷尔蒙比较高。

我早就觉得自己是男的了哈哈。

看我的五官和浓密的毛发就知道了。

怎么觉得还蛮自豪的。

黑眼圈是肾不好。

所以说啦，不是我晚睡、熬夜。

鼻子敏感？我从来不知道。

不看好像还没事，一看病痛还真多。

老实说，当时真的松了一口气。

还蛮高兴的。

又怕死又没用

爱你的阿慧

I'm back, like my bangs

2010-12-10T17:27:00.006+08:00

It has been a long time since I last post.

Working and exams. I'm exhausted.

I'm so happy that holiday is here.

I'm back in my lovely hometown.

Last few months is not easy to me.

Things that I dont want to mention here.

Well, I just say our relationship go through a lot.

Is that a sign of growing?

I hope it is.

I just wan to be stress-free :)

It's time to start smthg that I wanted to do for so long.

No more excuses this time.

My finger is itchy. I wanna make wonders.

Well, at least smthg that I'll do v no regrets.

I can write really humorous blog post,

or really fake n disgusting words.

But all I wan is me, n wat i truely feel.

words just come out at ease.

Long blog post is a no-no. I'm back, like my bangs :)

我不喜欢麦芽糖

2010-09-22T10:50:00.002+08:00

把一个人看得太重会让对方压力。

拉太紧的风筝容易断线。

偶像剧都是骗人的。

言情小说都是编的。

童话故事都是假的。

会累的，会烦的才是真实的。

要多分一点时间跟爱给自己、朋友和家人。

我不喜欢甜甜粘粘的麦芽糖的，

我喜欢苦苦有酒味的巧克力。

欣慧又有新领悟了！

p/s 拜托让我得到那份工作！我太想在那里做功了！！！

Holiday please dont leave me :(

2010-09-12T16:44:00.003+08:00

仅仅一个礼拜的开斋节假期，过得好忙碌。

不能说是充实因为没温习到书==”

可是每天都好开心，整个礼拜就这样腻在一起，烦死你。

星期一、二天在冷冷的colmar度过。

弯弯的山路，凉凉的天气，清新的空气。喜欢。

住在法国村，好美、好有度假的感觉。

那么冷的天气，大半夜跑到露天游泳池游泳。早上再来一轮。

下着毛毛雨，在日本村的植物园漫步。

看着超级大只的毛毛熊，我突然变得娇小:p

兔子园的兔子一点也不温驯可爱，还咬我手指T_T

是我的lotion太香让兔子头晕还是我的手指像胡萝卜？

回到芙蓉，看了票价很便宜的Piranha。

又要怕又要看，每次花钱吓自己。

无聊人非我们莫数也。

逼自己温习History一点用都没有。

每次读不到一页就昏昏欲睡了。

星期四，回Batu Pahat咯！

天气很热，车油很贵，toll很贵，小红不听话出毛病。

半路被迫等一个小时修车。浪费时间+荷包出血。

花了四个小时才到家，天啊！

可是一切都是值得的，看到爸爸、妈妈、姐姐、弟弟。

好难得一家团聚，说不完的话。

好希望inti就在这里，不用离家那么远:(

星期六跟batu pahat说拜拜，要回去了。

晚餐时见到Momo，变肥了！不像抹布了。

又是没效率的一天，早早就睡了。

星期天启程回subang。

一个星期的假期就完了。

我想说：辛苦你了。这个假期我过得很快乐，谢谢你。^^

STACT.ByeBye

2010-08-27T16:39:00.003+08:00

Finally it ended.

After months of hardwork n sacrifice

To me, we are successful.

We successfully complete every single event even there were so many changes.

We successfully leave sweet memories for the campers, local residence and foster family.

We successfully blend into the local community, they accept us sincerely.

We successfully learn a lot of skills, frenship, kinship, determination, patience and many many more valuable values that u'll never learn in normal everyday life.

Every CS is unique and special cuz every team is different.

There are only 22 of us and we are able to carry out this big project, i'm proud of everyone of us.

I must admit the feeling is not the same anymore.

No more doing preparation till midnight, silly jokes, warm supper.

No more exhausted feeling after every event, cuz it feels too easy most of the time.

We muz honestly said that members are nt putting as much effort lk us last time.

We muz honestly said that members are nt sincere as much as us last time.

But who can we blame? the committee?

Perhaps it's the long gone STACT spirit, the unchange system and messy senior backstabbing wars?

I'm tired, and I have made myself clear.

No more tee shin hui afterwards, no more trouble making people. I have completed my task.

Ever wonder y so many ex-STACT member leave STACT even they still study in inti?

Ever wonder y there's a need to worry no people to take over the club, no people to hold the committee position?

It's time to make changes, it's time to eliminate those old fashion thoughts.

I'm sorry i'm selfish too.

I do not wan to waste my time being as free labour, while nt being appreciated.

I wan my stress free days back, doing wat i like, free lk a bird.

I muz admit i hv fun joining STACT for almost 1 yr, it's warm lk a family, but it's ugly sometimes.

I'll keep the great memories and forget those ugly facts i saw.

Student Action (STACT) Club. SO LONG.

Friendship Through Service?

2010-08-02T23:28:00.002+08:00

I'm so tired, mentally n physically.

Where's the stress free tee shin hui?

feeling stress even classes nt yet started.

stupid class limit n new system, 10 ppl for a class?

100% increase in resource fee n let's see wat fucking good facility we'll get.

it's stupid for doin pointless sacrifice, again n again.

no one appreciate my effort everythg juz blame it on me.

But it's alright, no more tee shin hui afterwards.

with all the 'bastard' mentioned as 'seniors', i'm sorry to say, u'll lose more n more talented members and committees.

shameless attitude, screw u. leave those girls alone fucker!

we'll be better off without ur 'guidance'.

i'm sorry, did u juz say i'm rude? y dont u oversee wat u did before?

i'm nt stress when carry out my responsibility, i'm stress when u all ruin every ppl's mood n blame it on me. thanks a lot!

i know who to listen to, who to follow, finally after so many 'blind faith'.

for u only think u'r the best and others r only trash.

WORK WITH YOUR BOSS, NOT WORK FOR YOUR BOSS.

u all should hv understand this better, but why r u asking me to stress n scold my members?

perhaps it's time to realize u all can make mistakes too.

all of you clearly know tat what will happen after this project.

when all the 'labors' left, what is left is juz an empty shell with the beautiful lies "Friendship Through Service".

Get A Life will ya?

2010-07-22T16:33:00.003+08:00

So many dramas recently. 5 Stars for this one.

I'm sorry but you people are just too childish.

Whatever u like to think and judge me.

I seriously dun give a damn about it.

Sorry I'm not interested in playing your game.

Again, I would like to say:

My life is too wonderful for you to imagine.

GET A LIFE WILL YA?

p/s it's ok I wont be here for long. No more Tee Shin Hui, No more problematic ppl.

爱。是。牺。牲

2010-07-21T11:15:00.003+08:00

你知道什么是爱吗？爱是牺牲。

爱一个人是把他/她放在第一位，甚至在自己之前。

爱是付出真心，做每件事都为对方着想。

爱是不计较，爱是付出。

爱是不用担心做回自己，爱是坦白。

那天有点吓到自己了，突然的领悟。第三次了吧，哭得像个小孩。

我肯为你牺牲，我做什么事都想到你，你是我生命中的大部分。

而我是你的什么？你是否愿意为我牺牲？

我可不可以说你是在浪费我的时间，阻碍我找寻对的人？

我像在做亏本生意，只要你符合以上条件，我会毫不保留为你牺牲。

就算最后亏得一分不剩也无所谓。前提是你能做到那些吗？

现在才懂这些会不会太迟。是上天的安排还是作弄？

我说得头头是道可是一点都做不到。

对我来说你是对的人，可是同时间我很困惑。

跌跌撞撞才学到的智慧，无价。

别让我失望好吗？七月十五日，全新的肥猪。

我爱你。

我还是我

2010-06-28T10:34:00.004+08:00

忍耐、忍耐。压力、压力。终于，要爆炸了。

什么时候开始，笑容不见了？

什么时候开始，不再是自己了？

不是想说而说的话，叫废话。

不是因为想做而做的事，叫废物。

我讨厌每天说废话作废物。

什么激励人的狗屁我不懂。

我只知道喘不过气的时候，我他妈的笑不出来。

我就是爱说粗话。对，我脾气暴躁没文化。

你们最纯洁最神圣最厉害。

我不需要你告诉我怎么做。

你不懂我，你没资格批判我。

听多了、看多了，真的会觉得恶心。

虚伪的笑容，讽刺的问候，诡计多端，面目狰狞。

很抱歉，你们无聊的游戏我没兴趣参与。

我还是我，最初原来的我。

我决定做自己，我决定不再沉默。

我他妈的鄙视你们卑鄙小人。

能做自己，真好。

会说粗话，才是我。

我爱你们。

Stressed-->Desserts!

2010-06-22T14:08:00.003+08:00

Last week is a freaking crazy week.

Sales Presentation, Philo assign due, never ending STACT meeting.

Never been so stress before, I can feel the burden on my heart.

I'm so tired, never look so terrible. Pimples, eyebags, messy hair.

When deadline is near, i cant breathe. the only thg i did is emo.

The only place i can release stress is you.

Thanks for being there whenever i need ur arm.

I am still learning everythg is so new to me.

I always believe i can do it, i juz nid time.

Time is running out, so i cant stop as well.

Motivate myself, motivate the memeber, motivate the whole team!

I am Tee Shin Hui so i can do it!

Dear, ShinHui

2010-05-28T18:36:00.004+08:00

"Issues" by The Saturdays.

那段暧昧的日子里，每当想起你就会听听这首歌。

七个月了，我改变了好多好多。碰上了你我怎么没辙了？

固执暴躁无影无踪。还会在意你的每一句话。

笑过、哭过，弥补了那段空白的日子。

七个月了，你改变了好多好多。碰上了我你终于没辙了。

固执暴躁开始软化了。努力修补我的不安。

闹过，道歉过，制造全然不同的历史。

曾经，我受不了你的脾气，觉得自己好委屈，好想就放弃。

曾经，你受不了我的情绪化，觉得自己好累，不知所措。

现在我很庆幸自己不曾放弃，你的努力我看得到。

终于达到那个平衡点，终于释怀，终于爱得无忧无虑。

Not many people know how important STACT Club meant to me.

It's the place i can blend myself in perfectly.

It's the place i learn, I grow, it's like home.

Of cuz there's time I face challenge, conflict, uneasy.

But that's life, tat's learning process.

Community Service is definitely nt a fun trip.

The process itself is hard and tiring, but it's the most memorable trip i've been.

We do everythg bare handed. It is not smthg others can understand.

Gear up, I'm ready to take the challenge again.

This time, I shall learn to become a leader.

And you know I need your support cuz u knw I'll never quit.

Philosophy class gimme the power to go college everyd.

Looking at it from a different view, reading the txbk lk story book.

I rmb how i used to hv this feeling during psychology.

Test question looks lk alien language to me. But i knw i can do it.

I'm in the best condition and fully charged!

Appreciate everyday and do everythg v effort.

Do not ask me y am I dress pretty today.

Ask me why am i look pretty everyday =D

Love,

ShinHui

因为我有微笑的权利 =D

2010-05-19T23:11:00.004+08:00

Finally receive complain for not blogging for a long long long long period.

I'm actually hapi there's still ppl interested in reading it haha..

ok so hw am I doing recently?

CGPA-->DROPS! byebye 3.5. do come back next sem ok =(

Quite surprise to found out tat philo is actually quite interesting.

So why is the sky blue and why is God exist? lol

Finally the hard time passed.

Because I experience those difficult moment,

therefore I appreciate wat I was given right nw

I'm really happy, feeling safe and stress free recently.

Thx for all the changes and effort *love*

Target for this semester, A- and B+!

Gotta work hard to achieve this!

U can do it Shin Hui =D

我不任性、我不无理取闹。

我只想知道不管发生什么事，

都会有你的支持。

都会有你的拥抱。

爱其实真的真的很简单。

OH IT"S BREAK!!!

2010-05-08T21:31:00.002+08:00

I-S T-H-I-S M-Y B-L-O-G

Oh my god it's more like a dumpsite or abondoned island.

Have not blog for quite a long time.

So much to say, so little can be written >.<

Final exam is like freaky, crazy, insane, D-I-E

I dunno whether it's the insanity of lecturers or higher standard of Laureate.

Pray hard that my CGPA wont fall much plzzzz...

Next sem timetable is---->? (unknown)

Sometimes I wonder why my housemates are juz so annoying =P

Some act really weird some lazy some irresponsible

Now I have to pay extra utility even I din use that much

Fucker better stop using that microwave oven

Lesson for the day: crying make u headache

so dun cry so much especially silly stuff

violence is the best solution for problem =D

I'm not fragile or weak, i'm being sincere!

Grrrrrr..

Sem break is all bout goin back hometown!

Helping the economy of BP these few days

My face smiling my purse crying =(

SupperSSS v Tan Kylie Lim JiaMin Chiew WenXin Yong FattHon! haha

Mum's cooking was simply unbeatable

She wan to feed me i also cant resist lar!

and after all that drama our relationship gets so close

I LOVE YOU MUM!

Thanks for the Hello Panda it's delicious

My mum my sis n myself loves it =D

Hinting: We've finish it xD

Stop thinking bout it Stop thinking bout it Stop thinking bout it

I'm good I'm cute I'm pretty I'm confident I'm strong I'm mature

Sometimes when I'm insecure and emotional, I juz nid a big warm hug and that's all.

Sunshine Through My Window

2010-04-22T23:59:00.002+08:00

EMO IS BAD FOR HEALTH. (S.H., Tee, 2010)

yes i'm back =D

the crazy, silly, non stop talking me.

emo is juz not my style lol.

finally i got some earning after at the edge of bankrupt for so long.

Flyer distributer job on Mon.

and Sunsilk promoter job in carrefour on tues.

oh i'm addicted to promoter job!

Target: earn RM1000 during this sem break =D

No one is perfect.

I realize there's a fragile side of me.

Insecure and over sensitive.

Appreciate u for being patience v me.

and willingness to change yes i see it

sorry for not being able to join the trip.

same destination, same problem. $$$!

ya FUCK YOU who make story of me last time

i live so much better nw =D

End this post with some whisper:

Molly darling plz take good care of urself. U seem to worry so much and emo recently. I'm always here for u no matter wat happen. Wat's sister for? we share through sunny and rainy days. forget the past n look into future. be grateful of wat u hv and live life to the fullest. I'll love u forever.

KKB i feel guilty for nt being able to contact u n visit u often. but u'r always in my heart n i really care bout u. hv faith in God and stay tough! gotta make u a visit this coming sem break ok! no more lengzai in northwood since u left lol. miss ur 'over confident' smile xD

Release the Tiger in Me

2010-04-17T17:19:00.002+08:00

so after the 'wat's ur problem' i finally figure out smthg.

and thx for the long talk molly u always manage to calm me n make everythg ok =)

so now i'm no more the gentle soft-talking easily hurt cat, miao~~~

I'll become the tough demanding powerful tiger, ROAR!

yeah, perhaps this's wat u want..

at least for nw, it's peace and i'm no more feeling uneasy.

relationship is juz so weird and challenging.

self-reminder: LOVE MYSELF MORE.

我要做野蛮女友！

Pieces

2010-04-13T01:07:00.003+08:00

yes u'r right there's smthg wrong v me..

so wat is it tonite? Fuck that 3 bucks!

i hate being calculative ok!

yes i'm cheap and i make myself miserable for no reason.

why the shit am i doing all that?

stupid woke up early morning to make stupid breakfast.

stupid take ur dirty clothes home n stupid handwash them

why the shit should i care?

and u dun even wan to call?

It breaks my heart to pieces :'(

..I just Sigh

2010-04-10T00:38:00.002+08:00

How many times ad?

Impatience.

Look into the sky with a long long sigh.

Perhaps u never notice..

Try is not good enuf..

It hurts.

Insecure?

I dunno wat am i to u.

I need to talk to Molly =(

最爱还是自己

2010-04-02T01:43:00.002+08:00

人生好像从一出世就开始错过

小时候家境不好错过了快乐的童年

学生时期自卑错过了纯纯的初恋

上了学院错过更多

上个礼拜错过了考好成绩的机会

昨天错过STACT老朋友的火锅聚会

今天错过Ladies Night

每一年的结束总会发现自己错过的梦想

每一天都会觉得错过自己定下的目标

每一次的选择都会让自己错过另一个选择

每一次的错过都会让自己觉得遗憾

虽然无法避免但现在我不想再错过

离不开STACT是不想错过学习和表现的机会

拼命想拿到dean list是不想错过award presentation

叽叽喳喳是因为不想错过每一次能分享的机会

扮三八扮厚脸皮是不想错过大家脸上的笑容

所以每天吵吵笑笑闹闹

所以想说什么就说

所以想做什么就做

不用担心我知道限度

玩耍时要三八做事时要认真聊天时要废！

这些好像都变成了我的注册商标

要爱别人之前请先好好爱自己

学会爱自己之前别轻易对别人说爱

在这个世界上活了十九年

我最爱还是自己

不是自恋不是自私是自爱

欣慧我爱你! ^^

Run to You

2010-03-29T21:00:00.002+08:00

there's suddenly so much thg happen in these few days.

sometimes i blame myself for nt being able to offer help.

even if i can, i hide.

i'm selfish, i avoid problem.

when i knw i'm suppose to be there helping out i left.

sorry.

being considerate seems so hard for u.

hw many times ad? being hurt by ur words.

ur temper, ur action.

i knw it take times n it's hard for u.

but plz work hard, work it out, for me.

as u'r the only person i can run to.

i dun knw wat's the value for everythg i done.

i cant guess wat's in ur mind.

sometimes i feel so lost i feel so insecure.

yea i'm silly i'm wasting my time

i'm out of my mind juz thinking wat's in ur mind.

Tik-Tok!

2010-03-22T20:59:00.003+08:00

Getting lazier to update my blog. too much thing couldnt write here then wat's the purpose of updating it?

Dun worry i'm nt emo in fact i'm cheerful and happy every single day :)

Life is too wonderful to feel emo or feeling blues.

Have been freaking busy for past few weeks. Mid Terms, Presentation, Assign Due.

But of cuz never forget the time to get wild n play!

Klang, MOS, STACT+STACT camp, n a lot a lot of outing =D

Yea clubbing is interesting, the camp is fun, n outing makes me broke >.<

Got sick these few days after coming back fr the camp.. Skip class! lol

Everyd is a good good day. Live life to the fullest!

Looking forward to the Malacca vacation this weekend plz tell me it's on!

Be grateful Be happy Be me!

Vacation plzzzz

2010-03-07T23:24:00.002+08:00

I'm being so lazy this sem i dunno y.

Revision at last minute even i hv so much times the days before.

Dun give a damn to assignment even i knw it may influence my grade.

Wat happen to me huh?

Y is it i can be so relax even i'm stress to score well.

Luckily there's nt much assign this sem n i'm always able to finish it on time.

I nid smthg to motivate me.. Dad, u hear tat? LOL

Charity Night finally ended.

Cant avoid the disappointment but I hv no regrets.

I learn a lot in every STACT Club activity but i'm starting to neglect my studies.

I think it's time to take a break. however i'll never leave this FAMILY.

I'll still attend event n if they nid help i'll always be there.

once in this family, forever u r a part of them.

i'll never forget the experience n knowledge i gain here. thank you, STACT.

I need a break, a vacation.

Cant rmb when's my last trip.

Malacca-Port Dickson v the bffs? that's last september =="

seriously wan to leave this hectic town n relax myself.

study hard, play HARDER.

Ser Soon Huat: I wan go bali find ang mo n japanese bikini babe.

Story of HIM and HER

2010-02-26T12:22:00.003+08:00

So this is how the story usually goes. Boy meets Girl n they fell in love. FB relationship status being listed as 'in a relationship/married/engaged'. PM/shoutout/status will often hv his/her name. Status were updated to tell the world hw much they love each other. great promises and whole bunch of wishes n congrates fr everywhere. their whole world is only about each other and nobody else. People believed this relationship is goin to last forever.

u can see them hugging passionately in the middle of crowd. u can hear them saying hw perfect their partner is n they believe they found the true love. ppl believe they are so match n meant to be tgt lk a fairytale. But when reality strikes in, it’s time to wake up. Status were changed and u c anger and brokenhearts. N finally, the ‘in a relationship/married/engaged’ turned into ‘single’ in one night. They’ll look terrible in tat week but look perfectly fine again real soon. So is this the cycle of love?

I always believe true love will remain strong, even it is nt being shown to the public, nt being told to the world. I've seen many examples of story like this. u dont hv to tell the world hw much u love that person to prove that u meant it. love is really the matter between u and him. the world will never understand ur relationship and they dun nid to. this is only my silly thoughts and opinion, i believe it dun apply to all relationships. but i always believe, love is giving each other time n spaces, learn hw to love urself b4 u love him/her, be natural n simple and it's all about 2 of u. Sometimes silence is more effective than 100 times of 'I LOVE YOU'.

Taking back my stress-free days!

2010-02-19T09:35:00.003+08:00

This new year so NO MOOD.

Ang pau money pathetic.

People fake.

Gambling lose.

Weights gaining.

Pekcek so much thg.

Shitty assign due right after new year.

Shitty MID TERM come right after new year.

Charity Night so much thg hven settle.

I dunno whether i can handle all these at once =(

I cant help but STRESS.

I guess i'm really the type of happy-go-lucky.

Stressful days dun suit me at all.

Will consider less subject and cancel club activity next sem.

I wan my stress free days back!!!

Class Gathering

2010-02-18T23:27:00.002+08:00

新年回来跟朋友聚会最爱讨论的话题不过是八卦
谁和谁在一起、谁和谁分了、谁和谁搞暧昧

与其说是八卦我觉得是另一种关心

一段又一段的故事

一对又一对的情侣

一年又一年的感情

很佩服那些能够维持一年以上感情的情侣

那要经过多少考验，多少眼泪

每一对开心的情侣背后其实都有看不到的苦

爱情真的像一场赌局

你所付出的感情是你的筹码

付出的多寡全由你决定

不到最后不知输赢

有时我会怯步我会懊恼

有时我会害怕我会怀疑

不敢去承诺

不敢去想未来

不敢去付出

但由始至终我一直抱着同样的信念

顺其自然，开心过每一天。

Nineteen =D

2010-02-15T10:12:00.003+08:00

Happy Valentine Happy New Year Happy Birthday

Sound fun having 3 celebration in one day? Not at all =(

I was alone here in hometown sigh..

Wish can be somewhere else n spend the day v someone =P

Being born 1 day after valentine is so special! ok purely shiok sendiri.

So many wishes to make this yr.

If 1 b'day cake enable 3 wishes, i guess i nid 3 cakes =P

The biggest n most important thg is all the ppl i love be safe, healthy n hapi.

To myself, juz one, wish tat all my dreams come true hehe..

Stop telling me I'm 19-year-old ppl i knw =="

Happy Birthday, Shin Hui *love*

p/s: thx for the SMS/FB/MSN/CALL/FACE2FACE wishes ppl! <3

Birthday Trilogy

2010-02-13T00:49:00.007+08:00

Sorry for nt update this earlier i was being lazy lol. This is a really important post cuz it's My Advance 19th Birthday Celebration v Inti Classmates!!! First time celebrate birthday v another 2 birthday girl and accompanied by so many lovely frens.

TGIF Sunway Pyramid wiu wiu. Nice food, nice environment, nice people =D lazy to upload photos, as usual. go my FB profile n c ok! dun forget to leave a comment! wanna thank so much people here. Vivian, Christine, Sherlyn, Sue Jean, See Yin, Manda, Esther, Priscilla, Kit(lou hang), Wei Qi(sik long), Yujia, Brian(Lala) n FeiJu. Thx for spending such a wonderful birthday with me. I'm grateful to hv u all by my side *love*

The Birthday Girl: Me, Pris, Sherlyn =D

Blowing off the candle from long long long long long distance XD

All the pretty girls *wiu wiu*

Finally the group photo. Love u ppl!!!

Cookies Monster

2010-02-11T23:11:00.007+08:00

SO here's the surprise i prepare for the girls for the coming valentine's day. Ta-da!!! It's personalize chocolate cookie with really lovely icing on top! Found these adorable cookies at Subang Parade last sunday. So i call the baker n order 25 personalize Heart Shape 'LOVE YOU' cookie for the girls. Feel so hapi to see that smile on their face when i'm giving these cookies out =D Happy Valentine Girls!!! Love you <3

This one is my favourite =D Oh I'm still hesitate whether to eat cuz it's too lovely!

25 cookies lying on my bed lol. Every single 1 is unique =D

How can I forget my Sherlyn n Pris's coming birthday! So i order 2 Birthday Cake cookies v their names on it! It's so lovely <3

Happy advance birthday Sherlyn. Love you!!!

Happy Birthday my Pris!!! muakzzz..

Who said Valentine's Day for single girl is lonely? All girls deserve a lovely valentine =D

*Check out the creator of these lovely cookies here.

I LOVE $$$, and COOKIES!

2010-02-09T17:30:00.003+08:00

I love you $$$. But $$$ doesnt seems to like me.

recently $$$ juz wont stay long v me..

$$$ gone when i bought tops.

$$$ gone when i bought presents.

$$$ gone when i eat.

$$$ gone when i bought daily goods.

$$$ gone when i din even notice.

Luckily there's only one birthday for every1 in a yr.

If not.. =="

Cookies cookies cookies so much cookies recently =D

I love cookies so i wanna gif the ppl i love cookies.

It's in process oh i cant wait for tmr when i go n collect.

N thurs when i distribute it hope they will like it.

Another hole in my pocket bt it's worth it =)

Tmr faster come plz.. hihi..

BRAINSTORM

2010-02-06T21:01:00.002+08:00

I believe you know how hard it is to search for performance.

It is not making a phone call n arrange the time. Ta-Da, the end.

First you have to BRAINSTORM. (i finally know why it's being called brainstorm, cuz u have to squeeze ur brain for idea until it's lk hving a storm in ur head) The way to bring the storm including attending endless discussion, surfing online lk mad n asking around ppl u know or dun even know.

Once u find a performance (if u'r lucky enough), you have to find ways to contact the performer. Not all performer has a FB acc n u can easily access all the info.

And after searching so hard you get the contact, you have to call/email/msg/chat with the performer. then you can start worry thgs lk whether he receive the email/msg, whether he read it, whether he understood the msg, whether he interested, whether he care to reply.

Then when you finally get the reply (thank god), n you're lucky the performer agree to perform. you have to think skin enough to ask whether they can perform it for free. yet, u have to make sure they have high quality performance.

After that you happily tell other committee you successfully get a free performance for the event. guess what? you wont hear any 'thank you' or 'good job'. what u heard is 'i think all these performances are boring'.

And if you're so unlucky like me, they wont tell you what's wrong. they wont tell you which performance is BORING. you have to beat around the bush n BRAINSTORM again to rearrange everythg. n start all over again. they wan me to learn. ya thx.

seriously i dunno wat's the meaning of 'giving help but not telling them where exactly is the error'. i fucking dunno what i did wrong. what should be changed, what is the so call 'error'. i believe many of you went through this too. perhaps while not telling me wat's wrong, i hope u dun mind telling me how you cope with all this * last time.

No offends to any1. I'm juz STRESS.

I nid your hug rite now.

Say 'Cheese'

2010-02-03T19:35:00.002+08:00

guess i'm nt the only person stressing out recently.

i knw hw it feels when u try so hard n put in everythg to ensure wat u did is a success.

bt rmb, u cant be productive if u'r nt in ur best condition.

n u make me worry =(

u'r the one who ask me nt to stress n ask me take a gd rest.

rite nw, i hope u'll do the same thg.

i knw i cant help, bt hopefully i can gif u some support.

i wan to c tat smile on ur face everyd, once again.

Less of Them, More of YOU

2010-01-31T18:38:00.004+08:00

Meetings, discussions, searching for performances EVERYDAY.

Seriously it's too much. I'm exhausted.

I nid more private time to concentrate on other thing.

In order to make CN a success, i knw i hv to gif the best.

But i nid to balance my life as well.

I'm nt complaining bt i'm starting to feel stress.

I like wat i'm doin but mayb this time,

I wan less of them and more of YOU.

*Told ya gimme smthg bitable or I'll bite u!

It's Coming, Anticipation!

2010-01-29T11:54:00.003+08:00

Finally! Done every preparation for the special occasion =P.

Had been wasting so much time on tat =="

But I know it's worth it =D

No more procrastination, gotta finish the last few steps this week!

Counting down, lalalalalalalalalalala~~~

US Gov test 1 next week! 20% =="
I admit I din pay attention at all in class.

Gotta put all effort in to do revision X_X

I wan to score in this paper plzzzzzzz.....

I'm glad i din make the wrong decision.

Thank you MoMo <3

I cant do this vout you.

Miss u miss u miss u miss u.

I cant imagine life vout you.

No CNY shopping this year =(

My purse is empty my pocket gt a hole.

I'll juz drag a few dress i bought last sem n go back BP.

No1 gotta knw n it makes no diff.

N i muz admit all dress look good on me i juz dunno y XD (super perasan-ing)

*HUGS* XOXO p@nD@

Let's Score =D

2010-01-27T00:47:00.002+08:00

1st time tmr!! MACRO!!! erm let's juz ignore the stupid 1% statistic test last week. this sem i really being a gd student! never skip class (hven, so far), concentrate in class (i did other work silently even i'm nt listenning), did all the exercise n tutorial (copy fr fren at least), well-behave n being polite to lecturers (i say hi n smile XD), never late for class (nt more than 10min), hardly talk in class (less 80% compared to last sem), NO phone calls n sms (under table nt counted!), NO falling asleep in class (i'm resting if i'm tired), active participation in class (i ans alot! even it's nt relevant)...

I miss Molly Tan!!! seriously miss her. college is so diff vout her by my side. so many times i hv lunch alone, so many times i gt no where to go after class. it's lk losing a really important part of ur life. But i'm happy for her as she's changing to a better environment n doing wat she likes. even we'r far apart, i knw our frenship will goes on 4ver! I LOVE YOU.

RapidKL Rocks =D

2010-01-24T23:05:00.003+08:00

Went pyramid alone again this afternoon. since molly n sis left, i dun feel lk shopping v anyone except myself. shopping alone can be fun too =D btw i take the wrong bus while goin there. the RapidKL bus driver is kind enuf to put me at another bus stop n show me which bus to take hihi. n he din charge me at all! tq handsome driver =)

Speed shopping after 3 hrs once again i nid to take the bus home. So unlucky no bus goin to SS15. waiting waiting finally there's one goin to SS15, RapidKL again lol. Instead of putting me down at the flyover, he put me down juz in front McD, n I realize i'm the only passenger stopping here. he made a big turn juz to put me down. omg, touching. Thumbs up for RapidKL bus drivers! they r really kind =)

新年快到了，情人节快到了，我的生日快到了。

小时候我曾经很认真地做过一个决定，要是男朋友把我的情人节和生日礼物二合一，我一定要把他甩掉！哈哈。

礼物不在于它的价值，而是送礼的人的心意。收礼的人要感激，要珍惜。

我疑神疑鬼的毛病又犯了=( 要见面真的好难，那么近却感觉好遥远。

*我要一个可以抱的，咬的，捏的，打的。。。

2010-01-23T13:37:00.003+08:00

希望得到别人的尊敬

自己却做着低级的事

你的低级笑话一点都不好笑

我只觉得恶心和厌恶

你真的很可悲

鄙视你。

2010-01-20T21:09:00.000+08:00

Tired and Busy.

Hope can spend more time with you =(

*hugs*

2010-01-19T17:18:00.002+08:00

人，真的很犯贱。

自以为了不起，得到的东西都不珍惜。

幼稚、情绪化、不讲道理、任性。

好恨自己说出那么绝情的话，作出那么让人心痛的事。

差一点，真的就差那么一点，就要失去。

说出口的话、做出来的事，就像泼出去的水，收不回来了。

我真的真的很后悔。很怕，会在一夜里失去你。

完全能够理解那种感觉，心痛。

第一次觉得害怕，好像跌入漆黑的无底洞里。

收不到你的回复，我感到绝望和无助。

从来，我都无知的认为自己付出好多好伟大。

原来，自己是那个最自私最无理的人。

你没有怪我，反而让我觉得更内疚。

抱紧你，我告诉自己我不能失去你。

2010-01-16T10:59:00.002+08:00

不对劲。

有些事、有些人、有些感觉真的不对劲。

是我变了？还是梦醒了？

什么时候，我变成这样冷血？翻脸不认人。

感觉真的不一样了。

是我想要自由，还是从来我都不曾被约束过？

得到的东西都不珍贵了？

*Slap me cuz I'm such a BITCH.

2010-01-11T00:48:00.002+08:00

快清晨一点半了，明天早上八点还要赶去学校做STACT的东东。

不是睡不着，是心里有点闷闷的。

自尊心受创？没有啦，只是有点失落。

我很珍惜那些评语和提醒，可是改不了怪自己的习惯。

怪自己达不到要求，没进步，无法证明自己。

对自己很失望。

那么简单的东西，怎么就是做不到？

真的很想改，也知道光说不练是行不通的。

可是，心情自然还是沉重了。

不说了，鼻子已经开始酸酸的了。

再说，眼泪真的会忍不住。

2010-01-06T22:57:00.002+08:00

真的不想争不想吵，真的不想在MSN辩论

我想的和你不同，相信没人想的一模一样

很多事没有对和错，很多事很难解释

或许不需要解释，只要自己懂

我不需要你的认同，你亦然

我们不是辩论家，我们不是政治人物

不需要争辩一个没意义的结果

只向轻轻松松陪在你身旁

开开心心过每一天，就好

2010-01-02T16:05:00.002+08:00

Counting down in The Curve v CS members n spend an awesome nite. Jacklyn Victor-->Poker Face wiu I'm Lovin It! Tat means 2009 had became a history n 2010 is wat we should be looking at rite nw!

Finally done n enrolment this morning. calling Inti 10am in the morning n the staff told me enrolment ly available until 12pm! rush to college to enrol n luckily everythg is fine =D hopefully nonid do any add/drop. ACC3, still, cant run away fr it. gotta c siew bao's face again this sem ==" u told me u'r nt coming back. even i'm still hoping 4 miracle. i really nid u! everythg's gonna be diff vout u. i can trust no1.. =(

so it's time to wake up fr the past as well as holidays. New Year, New Hope, New Vision. Be happy everyday.

2009-12-31T11:24:00.002+08:00

最近情绪起伏好大，好多事在一瞬间发生。

圣诞节的味道是涩的，我笑我哭我闹。

妈说我忽略家庭，关系疏远了。

烦恼新学期的选科，时间表换了又换。

下定决心做part time，才发觉人家不要我 =(

想见面又怕见得太多，不敢缠你依赖你。

如果她不回来我要怎么继续？不敢想象没有她的日子我要怎么过。

房东太太说话不算话，硬是多扣了我半个月房租。

昨天和Y聊了很多，感情里面的对错我不懂。

哪种方式最适合，最持久，最浪漫？

我只知道坦坦荡荡，自然开心地过每一天。

2009-12-26T19:20:00.002+08:00

After 3 months of preparation, finally we'r off to Gua Musang Kelantan. The experience is so memorable tat it cant be described by words. Everythg is new to me, everythg is meaningful to me.

Being adopted is a whole new experience. living under one roof v foster dad, mom n 2 cute siblings. foster mum is a great cook. i believe i put on weight during this one week stay. foster dad fetch me back n forth for events everyd. really appreciate their effort.

organizing n conducting event is a whole new experience. from proposals to the happening of the event is really a long n tough process. every event is a challenge n i learn from every event. when u'r the PIC (person incharge) for an event. u'r the leader n everythg is depend on u. u hv to take the responsibility of making sure the event runs smoothly. I was incharge of 3 events n Emcee for 1 event. a whole new experince. was really proud being given the chance.

wonder y i was being called panda? definitely has smthg to do v my dark circles n eyebags. during the camp we organize locally, i slept less than 5 hrs in 2 days. was really exhausted n tired. really suffer n headache. bt every member is in the same situation. we put in efforts to make sure every event is a success. it's worth it!

close relationship was being built between the 28 members n 2 advisers. all of us carry the same responsibility n belief. we'r in the same BOAT. everyone face challenges together. whenever each of us nid help, the whole team is there to back up. everyone was giving their best n full cooperation. We'r a FAMILY.

wanna thank a lot of ppl who stand by me all these while. My Edu group leader tian xin n vivien who guide me throughout these 3 months. Advisers who giving useful advice, partners who gave full cooperation as well as all members who be there at all time.

I've grow mentally. I learn n i achieve. This is a once in a lifetime opportunity. I'm proud tat i attend the interview n training, go through 3 months of preparation n at the end the 1 week Gua Musang service. I'm proud to be one of the 20th CS member!

2009-12-24T15:38:00.003+08:00

平安夜前夕，迫不及待打给你。

当我拒绝你的提议时，

你说的话真的很刺耳。

盖上电话直接去洗澡。

越想越觉得委屈。

从来从来你认为一切都是理所当然吗？

从来从来你有没有替我想过？

道歉就得原谅？我不那么认为。

很怕支持不下去了。

爱一个人好累。

爱一个人好委屈。

爱一个人好想哭。

爱你好累。爱你好委屈。爱你好想哭。

2009-12-06T13:49:00.004+08:00

Decision made.

I shall listen to my heart.

I love every single one of you.

2009-12-03T23:37:00.002+08:00

矛盾。

庆幸自己是理智的。

爱你所以保护你和我自己。

相信自己的坚持和意志力。

爱我非你莫属

我只愿守护由你给我的幸福

爱我非你莫属

也许会笑着哭

但那人是你所以不怕苦

-《非你莫属》 TANK

2009-12-02T14:44:00.002+08:00

I miss college days..

I miss my frens..

I miss the lessons.. (bt nt exam n test ==")

I miss a lot of ppl who i cant meet in the holidays..

I miss hving lunch together.

I miss those lame jokes we told n lame action we did.

Holidays r great as long as they r nt longer than 2 weeks.

Now, I'm so bored =(

I cant work, I cant back to hometown, I cant go on a vacation.

I'm trap in this small rented room in subang.

Most of u r working so i dun wanna interrupt u.

I nid an outing! or meeting someone! can I?

+我告诉自己千万不能过度依赖+

2009-11-27T21:49:00.002+08:00

从来从来都觉得自己做的一切是那么理所当然。
因为是你，所以不觉得自己很棒很伟大。
总是替你找理由，任何事都自己扛。
有时候，再坚强的熊猫也希望有个肩膀能够依靠。

昨天当我听到那句话时，心，抽动了一下。
突然鼻子酸酸的，有种想掉泪的感觉。
因为是真心的付出，所以当真诚被感受到时，那种感觉的冲击很大。
我不知道那是你的领悟，还是随口说说的话。
从来没埋怨过，从来一切都是值得。
你，是否和我一样？

爱，不是吃饭看电影逛街说情话。

2009-11-27T21:18:00.003+08:00

Off to Muar to find molly for 3 days. Her house is lk a palace @ in the deep jungle lol.. nice environment fresh air.. n i'm so happi to c 3 of them.. Molly's mum is really a great cook. for tat 3 days we had wonderful food every meal. all of us 100% confirm gaining weights ==" life there is really relaxing n lk vacation :). we went fishing too! or should i said 'feeding' fishes? cuz we cant get even 1 ikan bilis at the end of the day.. it's a nice experience though.. n smthg really bad happened when we drive @ segamat. the most important thg is no1 gets hurt. Thx god.. the rest juz leave it to the insurans ok. feel hard to say gdbye on the last day.. molly tan i wanna see u next sem!!! promise me!! so i'm back in subang nw. so much messy stuff waiting ahead. moving apartment, cs preparation, repairing my laptop.. grrhhhh.. my holiday officially ends here.

2009-11-22T16:30:00.002+08:00

Have been planning this trip since final finished. kept worrying tat it wont happen since most ppl r losing interest in it.. luckily it's still happening =) gonna go Muar n meet up v my dear Molly tmr afternoon. the only 2 ppl which keep their promise r Ah Huat n Stickman. Lousy driver gonna drive long journey, so plz drive safely ok! I'll pray tat both of u travel safe.. While me gonna take express bus to Segamat. Cant wait to c them tmr. Hope 4 of us can hv a great time there =)

*Thx 4 keeping the promise

2009-11-20T15:09:00.002+08:00

Mum din woke me up 4 jogging today. I woke up myself when the alarm clock rang at 6am. when i was ready n get downstair, i saw mum in her casual wear =="

Mum: Ei y u woke up urself? i dun wan jogging today lar. i wan go pasar!
Me: *sweat for 1 min* nvm lar, since i ad woke up i accompany u go pasar..

We reach the market around 6.30am n it's ad quite full. Mum look so pro when selecting n buying all those meat n vege. I help her carry the basket to n acting lk a gd daughter 4 one day lol. the condition is nt as bad as i tot. the fish is nt terribly stink n the meat is nt tat scary. luckily lol..

In total, mum bought 7 fishes (tat's a lot i knw), bitter gourd, red onions, dumplings, 2 kinds of vege, 'hoi dai ye' (my favourite!!!), potatoes, tomatoes n pork. The basket is so damn heavy ==" Imagine my slim mum hv to carry these weight whenever she come market alone for shopping. =( nw i knw how hard it is to be a fulltime housewife. 妈，辛苦你了 ♥

2009-11-20T00:50:00.002+08:00

Result is out on the 18th. Received molly's msg around noon. was about to hv my lunch tat time. my mum ask me finish my lunch b4 checking the result so i wont lose my appetite ==". thx a lot mum..

I expect better result for MGT. i tot my coursework mark is high enuf =( A great disappointment i muz hv did really bad in finals. mayb this is the consequences of nt paying attention in class. blame no 1 T_T. MIS is ok bt the 1 crd hr makes almost no difference to my CGPA, so really cant help much. PSY has been a really tough subj this sem. Coursework mark is low n i din expect a gd grade. turn out as wat i expected. bt wth, still better than MGT even my coursework is lower?!

So it's time 2 forget bout my 3rd sem in inti n get ready for the coming 4th sem!! goin back subang really soon.. time to move my butt n get a part time. Money makes the world go round~

*I NID THE HUG*

2009-11-19T09:20:00.003+08:00

♥

Miss You.

Coming?

I'm Waiting.

2009-11-16T12:10:00.003+08:00

猜一下这几天早上我都在干嘛呢？
每天早上六点起床，不是看日出，不是赶巴士，不是去巴刹，是做乖女儿陪妈妈晨运。为什么会那么乖？其实是因为被念怕了==" 在家被念在subang也被念。肌肉松弛，这四个字对一个18岁的美少女（厚脸皮）的打击就好像被卡车碾过一样痛啊！瘦下来过后没做运动的后果，就是这样吧！
换上运动长裤坐上车，先把念中学的弟弟丢进像监狱的中学，然后跟妈妈两个人到“莲花池”拍拖。还没七点的公园就已经有很多人。莲花池的风景很美，空气很好，只可惜放眼望去全是结了婚的uncle aunty，没帅哥美女。XD 年轻人不是上班上学就是在睡大觉吧！别小看这些uncle aunty，他们个个老当益壮容光焕发健步如飞。让我这个跑一点就气喘如牛的年轻人自叹不如 =="。
公园的正中央有一大片空地，每天早上很多uncle aunty会在那里跳健康操、打太极。好可爱哦！哈哈。我和妈妈会绕着公园的跑道‘健走’大约五圈。跟妈妈比起来我还算走得快，哈哈。还好还好，证明我还年轻一点。走完五圈通常太阳已经升起来，汗也流了不少。然后我们会一起到早餐店吃早餐，回到家时通常八点都不到。有时真不知道那么早起来干什么=="
虽然每天必须那么早起床，完全不像在放假享福。可是能陪妈妈一起运动，让身体健康，一切都是值得的。继续当乖女儿咯！

2009-11-13T18:07:00.002+08:00

每件事情都有一个限度
忍耐有限度
情绪有限度
食量有限度
玩闹有限度
亲密有限度
有时候很难分清一件事情的限度。人总是贪心，人总是犯贱。
总是想得到更多，总是想走到每件事的最高限度。
更多时候，在不知不觉中，超越了那个限度也纵然不知。
直道纵成大错，才浑然发现自己已超越限度。
我不知道这几件事的限度在哪里。
我不知道我忍耐的限度在哪里。我不知道还能忍多久。
我不知道那件事的限度在哪里。应该更进一步还是适可而止？
妈说的话让我想了很多。自己好像有点不理智。
有点陷入恐惧，很怕一切没想像中美好。
原来不是全心全意付出，就能得到同样的回报。
原来方便会被当成随便，原来必须面对那么多考验。
相信自己的毅力，我们会一起渡过难关。。。

2009-11-12T03:01:00.005+08:00

Finally get to c my 2 best frens @ hometown. Lim Jia Min n Tan Kylie! have a girls nite out together.

First Stop: Wichery
yea, their favourite spot since secondary sch.. meet Echen n Yee Tian there. 2 old sch mates :) miss the day when we chinese girls rule the sch n create havoc every single day.

Second Stop: MBO cinema
this's my 1st time watching movie in Square 1 cinema. i'm outdated i knw. i've away for such a long time, n finally get to watch movie here. The Fourth Kind, a true story based movie on alien abduction. nt bad, interesting storyline n the actual recorded video is shocking enuf.. i juz lk this kind of movie lol..

Third Stop: Mamak
ok, i dun think the mamak has a name. bt those 2 ppl call it 'mei hua'. wonder hw come the indian chef gt a chinese name lol.. the Roti Telur really nice wei! I manage to eat 1 roti kosong+ 1 roti telur+ 1 teh ais. omg, i knw i'll definitely put on weight this break =="

Last Stop: BP statue
ok, ignore those stupid malay guys n girls, this place is a gd spot 4 nite outing. we 3 girls spend quite sometime chit-chatting here.. talk a lot of stuff.. 3 girls 3 program 3 places. eventhough we'r study far apart, our frenship will last 4ever..

*Girl, rmb i'll always be there to support both of u no matter wat happen. cant wait 4 our next outing.. *love*

2009-11-10T18:11:00.002+08:00

yes, I'm home. reach bp this afternoon around 4pm. feel hard to leave my inti frens.. =( 1 month is soooooooooo long 4 me.. so nw i'm officially back. bp kaki, u all better approach me asap! i dun wan rot at home ok.. ==" since the moment i step into house my mum start feeding me v brownie, fried rice, mashmellow, tit-bits.. i got a feeling~ tat this holiday i gotta put on a lot of weights.. ==" got so much thing to do this one month. hang out v fren, eat a lot hao liao, sleep till noon everyd, watch a lot tv drama, watch a lot free movie, CS final preparation, shopping, format my kampung laptop, go muar find molly, waiting 4 result to release, bla bla bla.. will crap n update my blog often so tat i wont kena forget by ppl even i'm far far away in johor..

*I miss u..

2009-11-10T17:47:00.010+08:00

leave my blog 4 a few days for CS preparation. gotta hv a really important update here. Ta-da! Molly's 21st Birthday Night!! Try my best to 'korek' ah huat n lala out to join us 4 dinner. Finally made our mind to dine in Ole-ole Bali, Sunway Pyramid. The food was nice. enjoy the food n conversation very much..finished our dinner really early. so we lepak n jalan2 @ sunway pyramid.then, tat 2 pool kaki cant stand the urge n insist go back AC for some round of pool ==".
Next stop: Darulsalam yum cha session.it's ok if u cant c me since i was the photographer most of the time.. hehe..
Molly, Happy 21st Birthday again!! love u very very much. Jimui 4ever~ *heart*

2009-11-07T19:26:00.002+08:00

这几天真的都好累好累。
社区服务的准备工作绝对不简单。
连续四天没好好睡觉了。眼睛肿得很恐怖。=="

最近发生太多坏事了。
看了很多学了很多想了很多。
我会努力的！

放假了，等于看不到你了。
坐车在回家的路上鼻子有点酸酸的。
我不是粘人只是真的会很想你。

*他和她和它对我都一样重要。

2009-11-04T22:53:00.002+08:00

Everythg's gotta be ok.
Cuz I BELIEVE.
I really hope there's a way to fix it.
I never want all these to happen.
Sincere or Fake?
Time will prove it.

2009-11-02T14:30:00.006+08:00

Finally it's steamboat nite. A BIG THANK YOU to all those ppl who make an effort to show up. appreciate ur attendance very very much. hope all of u had a great time =) hv a small advance celebration 4 molly's b'day. Hope she enjoys it. Love U soooooo much!! I ate a lot of ice-cream again =P

after tat, drinking session at Molly's favourite Station 1. the true or dare is juz so funny ok. haha.. great time v most of the northwood classmate 2day. seriously gotta miss all of u during this long break. take care n keep in touch ok!! muakzz..

*enuf attention lol =P

2009-10-31T14:59:00.004+08:00

~*3rd Sem in Inti*~

♥ class: MGT, PSY, MIS
♥ lovely MGT classmates
♥ Malacca-Port Dickson trip (the weeeeeeeeeeee~)
♥ Isaac's b'day @ Summer Steamboat
♥ Molly Tan (jimui 4ever)
♥ CCS Mooncake Festival
♥ Free mooncakes fr dear fren :P
♥ Community Service (a lot proposal+training)
♥ Scary Rashes by AC chair
♥ 1st formal presentation
♥ a lot of PPS (free movies) =P
♥ DIY hair dyed (Hairstylish: Tee Shin Yu)
♥ BBQ Plaza
♥ Funny flavor Jelly =P
♥ Movies (cant recall all the names)
♥ Barn Buddy+FB+Blog+MSN (everyd)
♥ Metamorphosis
♥ SP
♥ Cupcakes surprise v Molly's sis
♥ Steamboat @ Summer again (After Finals & Molly's advance b'day)
♥ Drinking seesion @ Station 1 (lolz XD)

*will update if i recall more =)

2009-10-31T14:38:00.003+08:00

Finished last paper today! wiu wiu! Luckily the PSY paper is okay.. hoping for A- plz.. Ms M u knw i ♥ u rite. LOL. wow, so relieve.. finally finish the battle. although juz 3 subj, it's a crazy short sem rush! it juz past in a blink of eyes. n there's too much thg happen. too much emotions.. goin back hometiwn in mid nov, after preparation of community service. seriosuly gonna miss all my collegemates. feel so hard to leave all of u for 2 month :( i shall treasure all the gd memories v u all. c u next sem!!! n it's steamboat nite to end this sem! Thank the organizer plz, Tee Shin Hui lol.. =P

*Trusting n Trusted ♥

2009-10-30T13:05:00.002+08:00

ok, finally finish MGT today. the paper is okay.. bt i crap for a 20 marks ques ==" Ms Putri u knw i ♥ u rite =P so hyper yesterd nite. din really sleep. bt nt tired at all nw, awuuuuuuuuuuuu~ as expected, all ppl happily went pyramid to celebrate finishing their last paper while i emo go home study psy =(. Last paper tmr!!! hooray! gonna set free very soon! will spend whole nite v my 'dearest' psy txbk. gonna make reviews 4 my 3rd sem in inti tmr. so stay tune ok =)

'the secret is u mz love wat u study. study smart nt study hard..'
yaya, i knw u panai.. =="
I ♥ PSY

*Curiousity kills the cat. Use ur imagination ppl =P

2009-10-29T16:02:00.003+08:00

I seriously think Inti hates me. Last sem, my psy101 fall on the last day and last slot of exam scedule. This sem, the same thing happen to my psy103. so when everyone jumping and cheering around 4 completing their finals. I headed home solemnly to study my psy. :( tat's wat happen last sem. n it's goin to happen tmr too. MIS paper today is okay.. hoping to get an A. Ms Pawani u knw i ♥ u rite =P MGT paper tmr. blame myself 4 nt doing revision frequently. every stuff look so new n strange @_@ headache.. n i knw i'm goin to die when it comes to the memorizing part..

*gambateh all my dearest MGT classmates ♥

2009-10-28T18:19:00.004+08:00

“喜欢一个人是欣赏他的优点
爱一个人是包容他的缺点”
有机会爱，就勇敢去爱。

好累，念了一整天的书。
睡个觉再继续吧。
明天一定要加油！

*终于放下心中的包袱 ♥

2009-10-26T20:23:00.000+08:00

New blog layout!!! this's the most simple thing that can cheer me up :) i nid ur comments! tq~
finals is coming i know.. the only subj which make me stress is psy! arhhh.. consider no tips at all! trying to get a A- is really really tough.. if eating that txbk enable me to rmb the info, i dun mind doing it :(
to all my dear frens, plz take gd care of urself, DO NOT FALL SICK! i'm here to support u, gambateh in final exams! *LOVE*

2009-10-26T12:04:00.000+08:00

这一次
我敢肯定
我不会再傻
我会为自己而坚强
我会为自己而努力
我会为自己而改变

*这一次，我让自己相信你*

2009-10-24T13:05:00.000+08:00

从小到大，我都是那么独立
不曾让你操心让你烦恼
就算搬到外面念书了
我还是一样自律和自爱
可是为什么现在我们之间的信任瓦解了？

虽然不是资优生，
我保持自己的成绩在3.0以上
你知道我真的很努力
请给我喘口气的空间
我需要朋友，交际
你可能觉得我在浪费时间
可是他们是我前进的动力

感情从来没有影响我的学业
我把所有的事告诉你
是因为我不想隐瞒
我没有沉迷，我没有分心
我知道自己在干什么

我现在处于平衡点上
我努力念书学习知识
我参加活动学习交际
我照顾朋友学习待人处事
学院生活真的不只是你想象中的念书和功课
我在每一件事中学习

我现在过得很好
我希望你可以支持我
不管怎样，我知道家人都是最重要的
所以，妈，可不可以请你相信我？
让我用我的方式，来过学院生活。

2009-10-22T19:56:00.000+08:00

我很乱，真的很乱
我不知道现在到底是什么情况
担心、害怕
我，真的很累了
心力交瘁
快笑不出来了
你说的、做的都很重要
而且，我在乎
千万，不要自己搞砸了。

2009-10-19T21:59:00.000+08:00

不管是真心话还是表面话
我知道我的努力没有白费
我一定会再加油的！
多余的担心 =="
怎么越来越没自信了？
拜托，不是那么软弱吧！
请对自己有自信！
因为你是郑欣慧~

*不要肚子痛就好 =P

2009-10-18T17:55:00.000+08:00

I fail making it.
Even it's so easy.
I'm juz stupid.
I'm not emo, juz feeling down..
I'm trying, I'm learning.
And next time, i will success.
I'm tee shin hui ler, Emo is not my Style!
*silly smiles*

2009-10-17T22:40:00.000+08:00

在网络看到这个很有意思的话：

有些话
有机会的时候不说
等到想说时
已经没机会了
心里有话，请勇敢大声地说。

*我不会读心术

2009-10-16T17:30:00.000+08:00

My very first formal presentation today. woke up 7am today n reach college @ 8am even our presentation will start @ 12pm. yea, i was really nervous n cant speak fluently durin the rehearsal (basically juz half n hr b4 the real presentation). U know my mind storage is <1mb. ==" 10 min b4 the presentation i get hyper n so energetic. when i start the introduction, i was quite shock tat i can speak fluently, confidently n clearly. wow, magic huh? i dunno. i juz feel really enjoy my presentation n most important thg I HAD FUN! although it wasnt perfect, but i'm satisfied v my performance. BIG THANK YOU to all my group members. i cant do it vout u all.. <3

I'm officially BROKE. dunno wth my $$$ gone. i hardly go shopping last month. i eat less than RM10 a day n i'm really careful in spending!! where's my $$$?! ahhhhhh!!! not gonna starve to death.. but i'm afraid i dun even hv the money to go the yr end trip.. :( '$$$ makes the world go round' my world is obviously shaped lk a square now.

2009-10-15T17:22:00.000+08:00

写部落格不是为了要炫耀什么
不是为了要宣扬什么
不是为了要展示什么
只是心理有太多话时
很想找个地方发泄
我不知道有没有人介意我写什么
我不知道有没有人讨厌我写什么
我只想说
我写的都是心里话
我的部落格就等于我

2009-10-14T19:51:00.000+08:00

好像讨糖吃的小孩
越来越贪心不满足
想得到更多

什么时候开始
心里每天暖暖的
脸上自动挂上笑容
烦恼都自动消失了
你变得越来越重要了

最近好忙好累
当我闭上眼什么都不去想时
可不可以借你的肩膀靠一下

2009-10-13T23:07:00.000+08:00

现在只需要

时间
和
空间

来决定结局

妈，生日快乐，这几年来辛苦你了。我会乖，我会听话。我♥你

2009-10-12T01:00:00.000+08:00

答案揭晓了。
心理出奇的平静，
是不是来自不说出口的默契？
你知道我是知道的。
心里有种踏实的感觉。
我不怕时间的考验。
是我的终究会是我的。
害怕、担心、不知所措，
你经历的我都经历过。
请继续装傻，因为我永远都是silly panda.

2009-10-11T15:32:00.000+08:00

我不知道自己想表达什么
只是心里很闷，想写些东西
他说：她是个不错的女孩
我自己也觉得你们很匹配
她真的是个好女孩
如果你们有缘在一起
我会比谁都更祝福你们
你的心里面，又没有任何一个她？
找不到你，我心里很乱。
找到你了，心里却又失落。
不知道自己怎么了。
千万不要忧郁。。。

2009-10-10T21:15:00.000+08:00

吃着快熟面，故意喝很多很多汤。
我知道那不健康，所以我说是故意的。
有点像幼稚的报仇，有点像无声的发泄。
只是，只有我自己感受到。
在我害怕、担心、不知所措时，
你在哪里？我找不到你。
有点失望。不，是很失望。
告诉自己不能依赖、期待、等待。
是你忙了？还是我被忘了？
我不是容易忧郁的女孩。
只是，一个人好累。

*爱上LARA的‘下雨天’。

2009-10-08T20:33:00.000+08:00

Extra chair, extra study table, extra bed, extra space.
This room is so empty.
I started to miss u.. =(

In a total hapi mood this few days.
C everythg in another view.
I believe there's a reason behind everythg tat happen.
Let nature take it's course and stop worrying.
I'll continue to put a smile on my face. =)

2009-10-07T19:18:00.000+08:00

clumsy+fuzzy+busy=short sem
everythg floods in within 1 month
every1 is on their fast pace
If u'r left behind, sorry
No one's goin to stop n wait 4 u.

i was shocked by ur courage
i was there okay?
rmb wat u did to me last sem?
i dun think i hv to remind u
i'm nt cruel, i treat u v the same way

i'm the toughest panda in this world
i gotta keep my cool n move on
i can be a really gd fren
or a really bad enemy
i'm me n tat's all i wanna be..

2009-10-06T19:45:00.000+08:00

等待太傻
所以选择当观众
才不会当局者迷

期望太笨
我选择顺其自然
才不会伤心流泪

轻轻松松
享受这一切
我还是single
还是available

2009-10-05T20:50:00.000+08:00

八点过后的晚餐
十一点过后的宵夜
一点过后的睡眠
冷饮零食
不做运动
不吃早餐
长时间看电脑
。。。。。。
谢谢你贴心地提醒。
请放心，我会照顾好自己。

2009-10-03T21:40:00.000+08:00

Went sunway pyramid v Tee Shin Yu on fri afternoon, I juz love the friday free slot! weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~ (copyrited by sherlyn tan n ryan ser) as promised, i treat Tee Shin Yu BBQ Plaza! omg, it's juz so delicious.. we finish everythg in the plate, even all the vege.. hihi.. I LOVE BBQ PLAZA N I KNOW BBQ PLAZE LOVE ME TOO!

Finally, here comes Community Service 1st training.. It's fun and interesting overall.. This service really meant a lot to me.. I did everythg sincerely n never complains. The sing n dance along session was FUN! but, sad to admit tat i'm completely terrible in dancing.. mistakes all the time.. T_T i swear i'll dance as gd as them one day!!! gambateh, happy feet =)

2 mid-terms on monday. sigh.. gotta study really hard tmr. i know i can do it.. sleep late? i guess i dun hv 2nd choice.. So many things happen this week, but I still put a smile on my face. Cuz EMO is not my STYLE. =)

cuz u light up my day, like the rainbow after rainy day..

2009-10-02T23:02:00.000+08:00

是怎么了？
怎么开始忧郁了？
怎么开始胡思乱想了？
怎么开始在乎了？
怎么开始思念了？
怎么开始神经质了？
说好顺其自然的，说好享受现在的，说好保持微笑的。
忧郁不是我的风格！说得出就要做得到！
尽管再怎么脆弱，请拿出坚强那一面，等待未知的结局。